Appointments and February Blahs

Rich still feels as if he has no energy and he is not really gaining any weight back.  This of course is a hard time of the year for him anyway.

Right now he is having the doldrums.  The overcast days have got him in a down mood.  Well, as he said. "I'm depressed.  I'm not getting better, I'm not getting my energy back."

When he is like this, there is no discussions to be had.  One just has to listen.  I can't point out to him that he is still alive and that he did have a great day out on Saturday when he went to an auction with the neighbor.

These things don't really matter much to him at this moment.  It is how he feels internally what matters.  He has stopped doing Tai Chi. I tried to get him to do it again.  But he just gives me the look.
He is supposed to be doing physical therapy but he has dropped the ball on that too.
  
I think part of it is that it is so muddy that doing anything outside right now is a huge chore.  When it was so cold two weeks ago, he had some trouble with doing things outside and breathing.

He has COPD and I think that the Throat Cancer and treatments may have made it worse.  That makes doing daily things a lot tougher. And unfortunately he feels that he should somehow be much better.

I have pointed out to him that he actually is doing more than he was pre-cancer.  But he can't see it.

I know once the winter blahs go away and the weather gets nicer, he will go into his 'spring' mode. At least that is what I am hoping.

We go for the CT scan and meet up with the Eye Doctor tomorrow.  I will ask the doctor how long of a recovery time he'll have with the eye surgery.  Rich is under the impression that he will be back at things the next day.

I am trying to be very positive for Rich and sometimes getting the dark look of gloom doesn't make it easy.
We take this time of year one moment at a time.
One foot in front of the other.